Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The Truth

Thank you, Sammie, for decoding The Count's last post. And I apologize for my reaction to you from before. I guess the heavy toll of all that's happened to me and all of us out there is getting to me and wearing me down. But The Count may have rekindled my hope, if he is indeed legit.

As for what he means...........

I have not been totally honest with everybody here.

Originally, Diana pointed it out, saying she knew things about me that I never told anybody. Now The Count knows too, and he says I have to come clean.

Maybe it's better I do so anyway. I'd rather you all know the truth about me and possibly hate me for it, then hate me for lying or hate me for somebody and something I'm not.

My real name is not Lucien Drage.

The name is actually Luke Davies.

I legally changed my name a few years ago.

I didn't live in New Jersey at the time. I was dorming at college, and planned on staying out there once I found a good job. I was in a bad relationship from 2007-2009. There was a girl I had met at my job. We had almost an instant connection. I fell for her hard and fast. Within one month, I proposed to her, and she said yes. Things were the happiest in my life.

Within 6 months, though, the real side of my ex came out. She was very mentally and emotionally abusive to me. I did the slightest thing wrong, or I had a different opinion from hers, she would freak out on me, and then say she would break up with me unless I apologized and did something big to make up for it. Even if I was right and she was wrong, I had to admit I was wrong or lose her. I had never truly been in love before, and I didn't want to lose her, so I did as she asked.

She constantly expected me to spend money on her, which made it difficult to be able to find a place of my own to live. I'm in debt right now because of her. Just when you thought things couldn't get any worse, they did.

July, 2009. She dumps me. She also admits that she had been cheating on me. You know, when I think back, I also believe that wasn't the first time she cheated on me. Possibly at the beginning of our relationship as well.

I was devastated, heartbroken, I felt dead inside. I didn't want to move home yet, because I  wanted to try and win her back. Despite everything, I still loved her with all my heart. But next thing I knew, I was in more trouble.

One night, she attacked me. With a knife. I was walking at the campus of my old school, trying to breathe, clear my head, and crying of course. Suddenly, a person wearing a mask comes out of nowhere and attacks me with a knife. I throw the person down, remove the knife from their hand. I grab the mask to see who it is, and in a total shock, it's her. My ex.

I ran.

I ran all the way to the police station, crying even harder than before because not only did I lose the woman I love, but now she's trying to kill me. When I get there, they keep me in a safe room while some of their cops go out to look for her. After a day, they say they cannot find her, and they tell me that to be safe, they may have to put me in the Witness Relocation Program. I told them there is no need, because I was going to move back home with my family. They said that it is probably the best, but that to be safe, I should change my name, incase she does try to follow me.

Lucien is almost like a full-name version of Luke, which is why I chose that first name.

Drage was chosen because it is a variation of Draco or Dragon, and I have always loved dragons.

That is the secret of my past. Since I moved back home, I've not seen or heard anything of my ex, but I always do have the fear of her finding me and trying to kill me again.

Kay, I never even told you the truth about this. I know how you can react sometimes to things that happen to your little brother. Almost like the way you know how I'll react to things that happen to you.

As for everybody else, I can understand if you hate me, wish not to follow my blog, or anything similar. I have been lying, but now, I have come clean.

As The Count said, the truth has set me free.

-Lucien Drage
Member of the Isabel Initiative
Fighter for the Cause
Survivor of The Threat
Defender of the Scared
Friend of the Free-willed
Brother to All


  1. Oh, frag, Lucien-- Er, should we call you Luke now? That's awful. =(

    I understand you being upset. I deserved it, if anything. I'm glad you at least are feeling better.

    That being said, if I ever head back to Jersey, I'm going to have to find you and hug you properly. This post makes me think you might need it :/

  2. I could never hate you. You were just trying to protect yourself. That is understandable. I don't think I could ever hate anyone. Especially after they've dealt with people like that.

    I'm glad to see you've got some closure from this at least.

  3. Spread the word
    See the world
    Free your mind
    Know the truth
    He Who Waits Behind The Wall

    Spread the word
    For the love of God
    Spread the word

  4. So, the truth is finally revealed, oh Lucien. "Into the Truth", indeed. Silly boy.

  5. @Sammie, thank you for the offer of the hug. I do hope to see you again. And keep calling me Lucien. It is, afterall, my legal name now.

    @Rebecca, closure? Not really. I may have come to terms with my past, but I never truly got closure from my ex. The doors remain open on that, and probably will be for a long time.

    @Ulryc, I have heard of this Zalgo mentioned before, still unsure as to what you mean by this, so my only response to that is the following: o..................k.

    @Vindicta, yes, my personal truth is revealed. A weight is off my shoulders, and with my truth out in the open, greater truths shall be revealed to me.

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